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UGHHH I AM EMAILING MY FRIEND JESS ABOUT CALEX THINGS AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT 22 WHERE CAS IS INSISTING ON ASKING ALEX, WHY DID YOU TOUCH MY HAND THAT WAY AND JESS JUST MADE ME CRY WITH WHAT SHE SAID:
And how she lies about [touching his hand] and says she didn’t know why she did it, and Cas is like, “that’s not true.” He is so persistent, even more than the end of chapter 20, when he’s like so sure that Alex went through some hell in 2014. But this is EVEN MORE THAN THAT, because he’s not asking, he’s full on telling her, “You’re lying, tell me the truth.” Because he just NEEDS TO KNOW. Because his heart needs to know, but also because - and oisudgilsjdfkljfkldh this makes me so sad - I feel like he would have loved her her entire life without telling her or letting her know, he would have been “content” (not really) to just suffer in silence watching her get with someone else and ignore Cas and get old and die, and Cas never would have told her, he just would have protected her and loved her silently in his own way and SHE NEVER WOULD HAVE KNOWN PROBABLY, because he didn’t want to burden anyone with his feelings, he never thought she’d feel that way back to him.
CRYING FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER](http://24.media.tumblr.com/24a6e250e0fc0f1d551297b0fec4cd3b/tumblr_mlb975bM4o1s46h7fo1_400.gif)
UGHHH I AM EMAILING MY FRIEND JESS ABOUT CALEX THINGS AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT 22 WHERE CAS IS INSISTING ON ASKING ALEX, WHY DID YOU TOUCH MY HAND THAT WAY AND JESS JUST MADE ME CRY WITH WHAT SHE SAID:
And how she lies about [touching his hand] and says she didn’t know why she did it, and Cas is like, “that’s not true.” He is so persistent, even more than the end of chapter 20, when he’s like so sure that Alex went through some hell in 2014. But this is EVEN MORE THAN THAT, because he’s not asking, he’s full on telling her, “You’re lying, tell me the truth.” Because he just NEEDS TO KNOW. Because his heart needs to know, but also because - and oisudgilsjdfkljfkldh this makes me so sad - I feel like he would have loved her her entire life without telling her or letting her know, he would have been “content” (not really) to just suffer in silence watching her get with someone else and ignore Cas and get old and die, and Cas never would have told her, he just would have protected her and loved her silently in his own way and SHE NEVER WOULD HAVE KNOWN PROBABLY, because he didn’t want to burden anyone with his feelings, he never thought she’d feel that way back to him.
CRYING FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER









